Friday, September 27, 2013

Short Post

It's about time I updated this blog.

I'm currently blasting music through my headphones in an attempt to drown out any thoughts in my head, but I'll push through that to write something cohesive for you.

Before I even left LA, I made a promise to myself that I would have fun this semester, no matter what. And guess what? I am! But fun comes with a price. A lot of prices, actually. I'm constantly, tired, sore, and feeling physically sick and heart broken... not to mention the actual monetary cost.  There were a few things I wasn't expecting to happen on this trip, and a few surprises from myself - both good and bad. I have and am changed in a lot of ways. I'm thinking of ways to get myself back on the right track.

Vacation starts tomorrow, and I'll be on a flight to Rio in less than 12 hours. And boy, do we need a vacation. You should have seen the class today. Everyone just looked so downtrodden. One of my classmates even said that we all looked as though our cats had died. We have a reason to be glum.... we all are getting terrible grades and none of us really know why. We just got our first grades back today, and.... wow. For the amount of work I put into this, I don't think I deserved a D. Okay, I read the comments the teacher wrote and I get why they downgraded me, but I also feel like the expectation may have been a bit too high, especially now at the beginning... or maybe I'm just being whiny.

Right now, I don't have the energy to write any beautiful prose for you. I have a lot on my mind, but I don't really feel like sharing it with the internet. I lost the handkerchief my dad gave me. Last month. I was sad about that. I liked it. I hate sentimental things. I usually avoid them to the best of my ability because they end up making me feel soulless or empty. But I liked that one.

What else can I tell you...? Sorry this post came at a bad time. If I'd updated this a couple of days ago, it would have been more upbeat. Last night was crazy. Then today, an unexpected person put my situation into perspective for me, and made me realize that I just might be soulless. Sigh... Oh yeah, and today was the last day we had class in São Paulo. Now Rio... then off to South Africa.

I'm tired so... here's a picture of a place that's relevant to my independent project. Which I'm currently getting a D on. It's a stream through a favela, that sewage is dumped into. See the small pipes leading from the houses to the stream? That's called informal infrastructure. But... to me it also shows the strength of the community, since they all help each other out to install the pipes. It gives a certain uniformity to an otherwise varied environment.



Boa noite,
Emily

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